On May 7th, I lost my job. As a 27 year old who had been continuously employed with at least one job since 16, it has been quite a shock to me. Thanks to my personal situation, I have the luxury of being able to look and wait for a job that I really want, which has not come to pass, not for lack of trying.
Being without work for 3 and a half months has been a bit of a roller coaster ride to say the least. To be honest I was nearing the point that I was ready to move on from my previous job, so while actually losing my job was a tough day, I wasn’t too sad about it. I hold no ill will towards my previous employer, but I needed a change. After the shock of losing my job wore off, I was at peace with it, and was ready to move on.
I originally had hoped to be working again right away. Within a week I had applied at two or three different places, and got an interview with one of them. I thought the interview went well, but I did not get the job. That was a bit tough at the time because it was the first time I was not successful in a job interview. Also of note: when I emailed the HR employee asking if she could let me know what I could improve on, or some of the reasoning. I didn’t receive a reply, not even a “we don’t really discuss that”. I found that *very* unprofessional, especially from a large company like this, and it really turned me off from this company. I’ve seen a couple of other jobs from that same company since, and I haven’t applied. A company where an HR employee can’t even take 5 minutes to email a couple tips to someone is not a place I want to work for.
The second job interview about 10 days later was also very interesting. It was for a very small company, and my interview ended up being a nearly 90 minute conversation with one of the partners. It was a great time and I felt very confident coming out of it. The partner was very positive to me and dropped some strong hints that I could expect good news shortly. When I got the call a few days later that I did not get the job, it was pretty tough. The gentleman apologized several times. He outright told me that he had to make a tough call, and that while he felt I would be a better fit for the company he went with someone with more experience. That was, and still is, a tough pill to swallow. The job was a fantastic opportunity and one I was really looking forward to. One of the things that really stung was that 8 years ago when I first started looking for professional work, not having any experience was a stumbling block, and it took a company taking a chance on the kid with no job experience to get my foot in the door. I thought that those days were behind me. I can’t fault the gentleman for having to make a tough choice between 2 people. Sometimes experience isn’t everything, and unfortunately 8 years later I’m still fighting that. The last lesson I took away from this was that I shouldn’t get my hopes up too high until I know for sure I have the job. It makes it harder when it falls through.
After the two failed opportunities I took a break from the job hunt. A yearly holiday was coming up and it wasn’t realistic to apply for new jobs that I wouldn’t be available to interview for for a couple weeks. And honestly, taking a break wasn’t a bad thing. The shock of being unemployed had me looking to get back to work as soon as possible, but I hadn’t had more than a week off during summer since I was 15 years old, and in all honesty having the time off has done me a world of good in many ways.
After returning from the holiday, I applied for more jobs, and got another interview. The interviewer was impressed with me and seemed almost ready to give me an offer in the room. But I wasn’t sold on him or the company. I did receive a job offer later that day, within 2 hours actually, and took a weekend camping trip to think about it. During the trip I talked about it with several friends, one who had a connection to the company. I won’t dive too deeply into it but between my initial skepticism of the company, some further research into it, and hearing some accounts of the company, the following Monday I turned down the job offer. Turning down an offer was pretty hard to do but something just didn’t’ feel right, and I knew it would not be good for myself to take a job that I didn’t want for a company I was so skeptical of.
That leads me to here, where I sit in the middle of a weekday typing this. As I said at the start, for the time being I have the luxury of being able to look for something I really want. What that is.....I’m not sure I even know. What I do know is that I’m lucky to be in the position I’m in. Having the summer off for the first time since i was 15 years old has been great in many ways, but I do want to get back working. Maybe I’ll get a call tomorrow. If not, I’ll continue to search for something I want, and probably start to use this space more to talk about things that I like and want to talk about. If only *that* could turn into a career……..